in the past couple days i have been excited and ready to go. orientation is tomorrow and the next day, all day, and the excitement has shifted into jitters. i’m sitting here looking at my dinner and i’m not sure i can eat it.
its in the back of my head all the time. when i went to put on laundry, i thought “its tomorrow. i’m going to be a midwife.” and the little voice in the back of my head is trying to tell me “this was a mistake. back out while you still can.” and i’m trying to tell that voice that its a lying liar face.