i have become incredibly lazy.
most days, i have a nap for a few hours. i have very little energy and i feel tired all day. i do just about nothing – it took me days to get to washing the (six loads of) laundry, and now it looks like its going to take me days to put it away. each morning i have a plan for what i should be doing and by noon i am spent, and generally have done nothing. today i did ONE THING that was useful. the rest of the day just disappeared, and now, at the end of the day, it feels gross to have wasted all that time. but i also honestly feel like i could go back to bed right now.
its weird, and its not like me at all. i wonder if theres something going on – like my iron is low or my body is finished with all this breastfeeding business and its starting to tax me somehow. or sometimes when i become lethargic, its my depression picking it up a notch. don’t know.