water bear is starting to wear out her welcome. there is no way to be comfortable any more. shes pretty cramped now so her little feet catch me under my ribs all the time. i used to be able to rub my belly over and over or stand and sway or rock on the spot to soothe cordelia so she went to sleep, but that doesnt seem to work for the water bear (she does like my humming though). i feel like my ribs are bruised. my midwife says they just might be. other than that, water bear has nestled her head deep into my pelvis and i frequently feel her little hands up by her face – i can only assume shes trying to find her thumb or play with her ears or something. i am getting so itchy and am coming up in red welts on my belly where my stretches are – just one of those things you get for babies due to be born in the heat. straight-up shea butter is all i can find that stops the itching. full moon belly – stretched, taught, uncomfortable. backaches.
today a new fridge showed up. its really one of those low-end, bottom of the line fridges that don’t do anything particularly special (except that refrigeration in itself is pretty special) and it even comes in a colour that nobody wants – black. but compared to the old fridge (which, when they pulled it out from the wall, we discovered had been installed in 1981 and came from a warehouse in mississauga that certainly doesnt exist anymore) anything is vastly improved, new and amazing. we also discovered that somebody, and what looks like many years ago, noticed that the fridge was dripping and decided to ‘fix’ this by sliding a shallow roasting pan under the leak. so we had a pan full of what used to be water covered in a skin of multi-coloured mould, which we identified as the source of some of the bad smells that appear in the kitchen sometimes in the heat. jim nearly threw up when he tried to tip this thing out.
apparently everybody wants stainless steel fridges with icemakers and laptop screens in the doors. we saw a fridge that was lit up by light blue LEDs in strip lighting on the inside, making me think of those lights that people run along the undersides of their cars, or maybe an airport runway. we even saw a fridge that had a clear glass door so that you could see all your food inside. i think that would make me want to clean the fridge out all the time. theres fridges with special extra drawers for i dont even know what. theres fridges that come in expensive wood paneling. theres fridges that cost as much as my university tuition. all of it.
our 80’s, oatmeal-coloured fridge has been working part-time whenever it feels like it, and it doesnt like to stress itself out too much in a heatwave. we are lucky we didnt have any meat in the freezer because the fridge liked to freeze and thaw and freeze and thaw and we decided that we had had enough of that. it did this last summer too, only not to the extent that it has done it this summer. our landlord gave us permission to trash it and bring in our new one (which we bought, so its indeed ours and we’ll take it with us when we go) saying she was amazed it had got this far. shes a pretty awesome landlord. our previous landlord would have taken like three days to get back to us and then gone out four days after that and chosen the cheapest, smallest fridge he could find and then arranged to have it installed very badly by some inefficient buddy of his.
KEG is going to bring us some secret eggs today. theres been an ‘egg inspection lady’ as they have called her (they also used some other less friendly words too) who has been desperately trying to shut down their egg sales. Emma said that this woman demanded that she search the truck and picked through everything looking for chicken eggs, which emma didnt think was within her legal rights to do. meanwhile, theres absolutely no problem with duck eggs, which KEG has been selling in the meantime. sounds like a case of big egg farmers really trying to shut down little egg farmers. i asked about the duck eggs, bill said “we can sell them still because basically, nobody has a huge monopoly on duck eggs yet. we should start one i guess. i’m going to go home and draw up plans for industrial duck egg farms.” the way around it is to do an egg CSA, which KEG is working on. emma says ‘or we’ll get some aracuna chickens and then just tell the egg lady they are smaller duck eggs.’
last year when there was previously a bit of a scuffle over eggs and both KEG and zach were briefly shut down. shannon told us last year when we asked what was going on, “its perfectly okay for you to drive up to the farm to pick up the eggs yourselves, but if we bring them to you, we’re risking your lives. somehow they dont understand why we aren’t buying that.” zach had to put his eggs through a whole long big certification process that took weeks to complete and basically means that he gets very little profit on selling his eggs, so little that its hardly worth it for him. but he says he’s keeping it up anyway because its what he and his customers believe in and collectively, everybody wants to see it continue. the thing is, we are not only buying eggs for ourselves anymore, but also for my parents and jims parents, so we can pick up 2 -3 dozen every week, and we really do not want to loose that as good eggs are mostly sold under the table in toronto and are really hard to find.
people, stop hating on the farmers markets. their eggs are better than your eggs any day. i think you know that too.